Maybe I don’t like to feel a voyeur to my own life anymore.

And I don’t really like the idea of taking aesthetic pictures of my day-to-day life when I’m literally at home doing not very interesting tasks.

I’ve just started my journey into creating content for social media and YouTube, and something that has been circulating in my mind recently is the fact that I really just don’t feel like posting Instagram stories naturally anymore. I have to force myself into doing it, since I stopped in 2024.

Why stopped it? Because I didn’t have anything interesting to post one day and more and more, I realized that I actually didn’t have anything interesting to post most of the days, and I started to feel kind of shy towards my own social media, like when you stop doing something someday and everyday day that you don’t do it makes it harder to come back, but why?

Was I shy about my followers, seeing that my life is not actually as interesting as all other people on social media are? What would they think of me if they discovered that I posted a picture of some other day that I was actually doing something instead of posting live pictures of a random afternoon? Does everyone do the same thing? Is everyone pretending not to be bored but is actually having an uninteresting day? Because life is way more filled with uninteresting days than we make it seem to be, at least for most of us.

By the end of last year I decided to start a journey into creating content for social media, and since I discovered my real audience and the topics that I actually like to talk about, I’ve been receiving all kinds of encouragements from viewers and followers.

But with that, I’ve also started to feel guilty about my habit of not posting ever on my personal Instagram, because we all see it almost as an obligatory thing to do as a content creator.

The thing that made me stop posting on my personal Instagram regularly is the fact that my real day-to-day life is not actually interesting enough for people to be watching it. I don’t buy clothes very often; I don’t go out every day or neither every week; I don’t go to many events; I don’t talk to a lot of people or create something new every day that’s worthy of posting, besides my videos that I post on TikTok.

And those videos being focused on not even my life but subjects of discussion around fashion, brands and consumerism, I feel like my knowledge is way more interesting than my actual routine, so why bother to post about myself when I can post about many other things?

And why would anyone be interested in my life when we are talking about fashion show analysis that I did not attend? Why would anything about daily life be as interesting as knowing about our favorite brand history?

I see no actual reason for that matter, besides the fact that we got so used to consuming someone else’s life that It seems almost necessary to provide people with our own lives as well.

Maybe the title of this article is not even right; I wouldn’t say I don’t want to have a personal Instagram, but in fact I don’t enjoy posting stories or updating people about my “Monday afternoon” anymore, I don’t post naturally because for me, it doesn’t make sense when all I do are the most common things at home in my pajamas.

Maybe these past few months made me understand why I don’t like it that much anymore, and why we all feel kind of drawn towards doing it. I like to share my life when it feels interesting enough, but most of the days it just isn’t.

And here goes some memes I found online about being online for us to feel more self aware while we still online:

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